So, just telling you guys what I did this Valentine's day... The day started off pretty badly, because firstly, I didn't sleep until 4am and I woke up at 6am to get ready to go to Birmingham. I had to go to Birmingham because of my job and all I did there was just to take minutes for a 3 hour meeting, which was pretty exhausting D:
Originally, I planned to go to central with Wendy, David and a couple of their friends to watch 'The Woman in Black' but I couldn't..sad times :( So, I said that I would meet them at the stickies place when I got back :)
So, I went up to the stickies place and I didn't see them, so I thought "awhh crap, too late" *sad face* :( So I decided to call Wendy to see whether they already went home or whether they were still in central. I called a couple of times but she didn't pick up ¬,¬ so I texted her and she didn't reply -_- so I waited outside for about 10 minutes and then she called back saying that they were taking pictures so she couldn't answer the phone. So I was like "ahss okay don't worry" :')
As I went up to them, I saw a familiar face, she was really pretty, no, beautiful is the correct term...and naturally, I was speechless :') Those of you who know me well, know that I'm pretty useless and shy around pretty girls ;)
So, after we left the stickies place, we walked around Chinatown and then ended up in Troc under. We hung out there for about 10 minutes. I was the only one that stood while the others sat down on the floor. I didn't sit down due to 3 main reasons:
1) If I was to sit down, I would have to sit down next to the pretty girl because if I sat next to one of the guys, I would either be facing his back or I would be sitting in the middle of the path. As you already know, I'm shy around pretty girls.
2) I didn't wanna ruin my suit
3) I had been sitting down for 6 hours so I wanted to stand LOL :')
Tbh, I would have liked it if we stayed out for dinner, but they had to go home, so I decided to go home as well. The other guys and I were going on the northern line but the pretty girl was on the jubilee line so I made up a stupid reason so that I could go on the jubilee line with her but then the other guys tagged along ¬,¬ but it was okay as long as the pretty girl wasn't alone. So, as we got closer to the last stop, the guys left and I was alone with her in the carriage with only one stop to go..
I started talking, just asking a few questions about her, just to break the silence and when she spoke, her voice was so gentle, delicate...elegant. And then we got to our stop, we walked slowly out of the station, silent. As we got to the exit, she said that she was going to wait for her parents to pick her up from there. I really regretted what I back then...I left her and I got on my bus home. I felt that I should have waited with her until her parents came, because it was dark and it the station isn't really the safest place after dark. But none of that happened, I didn't even give her a hug before I left, while the others did. :( But the time has passed, I'll just have to make it up in the future.
So, to sum up my feelings that day, I felt really happy, that is all. LOL. xD
But the girl...her laughs are cute and I really really really like her but I just feel that I'm not worthy of her. I know there's no such thing as perfection but she's so damn close to it. Now, you maybe thinking why don't I just ask her out? Well, let's just say that IF she doesn't reject me, I don't want to lose her as a friend, you know, "once lovers but now strangers". I've experienced that and it's not great. But on the other hand, if she likes me, then it's a different matter, if she comes up and tells me, then I'm really screwed because, well, I don't want to upset her but I don't want to go into a relationship and ultimately lose her, such a dilemma :S
So, I'm seeing her for a friend's birthday, let's hope it goes well..
Peacee ^_^
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